I feel totally happy even in a worn-out state because I know for the first time in a long time I’m ahead of the bullet I’m not trying to catch it I’m not riding on holding on for dear life I’m just there with my feet in front of it and it’s pushing me somewhere faster than I can see I have to trust and I have to fly and I’m so grateful that I am seeing something like this because I cannot believe how long I’ve been holding back so I could feel comfortable and safe